the wind is weak.  these sails are tattered and torn.  they hold no hope.  they hold no future.  revive me oh Lord, not for me, but for your name.  your promises are so full, but my heart is so empty.  deliver me from this pursuer.  revive this heart, that it's faithfulness might bring great glory to your name.

your faithfulness is beyond all things, and your righteousness completely pure.  revive in me your Truth, that i might take comfort in it's promise.  revive these sails, draped and dragging.  revive in me a future.  revive in me hope.  bring me more of you...

The snow was awesome.  More than I have ever seen around here.  Drew, Gresko, Seals, Becca, and I walked over to Eureka and played in the snow.  It took us forever to get there because we kept pelting each other with snowballs every step of the way.  After a few hours of fun in the freezing cold, we trekked back to Gresko's pad to get warm.  After getting out of our wet clothes (and into some dry ones of course), we all laid around the fireplace eating eggs, pancakes, and sausage.  Just talking and enjoying the evening.  It was awesome.  I love my friends.

Work has been going well.  I'm still trying to adjust to having so little time for friends and myself.  Most of the day seems lost to work.  Not that work is pointless, quite the contrary.  My coworkers are pretty cool people (in general) and it has definitely made me depend on God more as I try to love those He has placed in my life.  That battle is new and interesting, but not as difficult as trying to balance these two different worlds.

Life has been shifting a lot as of late.  Last Saturday I went to the park with a friend for a few hours.  I really enjoyed it, and I also got to see a lot of God's faithfulness.  Even though the ducks weren't down for being fed, it was still a great afternoon.  So that was awesome.  There have just been all sorts of little moments that have stirred my thoughts for Him.  Even now in reflecting on them, I am surprised by their quantity and significance.

There is still hurts, confusion, frustration, and brokenness, but overriding it all is a great sense of peace and joy.  My focus is Him.  His grace is enough for me.  I love the way that despite a million reasons to find me unworthy, He loves me.  It is that Love that redeems and keeps my focus.  In those moments that I would find unredeemable fault in myself, His love for me is made even greater.  And that is really life right now.  Lots of changing.  Lots of things that are keeping me even more dependant on Him.  Lots of moments to be awed by His love for me; proven by how messed up I really am.

So much has been going on!  I am currently considering 2 open job offers (Fidelity Investments & TD Ameritrade).  I am praying through which one to take.  The decision would be pretty easy because Fidelity pays way better and, in general, I feel is a better company career path wise.  Unfortunately, I might not be able to ensure that I wouldn't have to work in the evenings.  I am not opposed to working evenings, but with where God is calling me right now, I can't work every evening.  Therein lies the problem.  My friends (community) are such a huge part of God's work in me.  They pour into me so much, and I into them.  People are the priority over money.  God has called me to pursue becoming a pastor (of the worship variety).  God is the priority over people and money.  God has made it clear that I need to be free in the evenings to pursue these things.

So the question really comes down to this:  should it come to this, am I willing to throw away 10,000/yr, a promising career, and arguably the best entering finance job attainable?  Absolutely.  He is so worth it.  I don't even know if that will be the conclusion to this, but if it is, I know that He is so faithful.  I am excited to start working for real now.  It has been weird being done with school, yet being so busy still.

In other news, I am currently being discipled by Josh Drew, the worship pastor at my church.  Myself and two other guys are going through a discipleship thing with him.  It is pretty cool.  I actually have to be up super early tomorrow because we meet in the mornings (once a week).

I finished going through recovery a couple weeks ago.  It was such a good process.  God has really used that to grow me in so many areas.  I am praying about being a sponsor (kind of like a mentor type thing) for people that are going through it.

I've written a lot of songs recently.  One of the ways that I have filled the extra time that I have had.  I haven't actually finished one in the past couple weeks.  I have played around a little bit, but I've been working more on guitar work than words at the moment.

As always, God is continuing to grow me a lot in relationships and what my role is in making sure that all of those (male and female) are glorifying and honoring of Him, and that I continually point the people in my life to more of Christ.

That is kind of the brief, catch-you-up version of my life right now.  I may try to fill in some of the gaps later.  Feel free to ask any questions and I'll answer them next time!